Hearts in Motion Page 6

  “Your penis drives your brains. Now I know your problem.”

  “Every man thinks with his penis when it comes to women.” He nodded his chin at Holden. “Except you. And that’s your big problem. Your marriage to Portia will be like Grandma and Grandpa’s.”

  “They were married for sixty years before Grandma died.”

  “And I’m sure they were sixty looooong years. How often do you think they had sex?”

  Holden shuddered. “I don’t even want to think about that.”

  “Neither did they. There was a reason our father was an only child.”

  “You’re an asshole.”

  Ryan shrugged. “I’m telling it as I see it. When was the last time you and Portia got sweaty together?”

  Holden glared at him, his lips clamped together.

  If he said anything out loud, Ryan would know.

  Ryan unhooked his leg from his knee and sat up straight. “Shit, don’t tell me. You aren’t having sex with her.”

  Holden stood, wishing he’d never come back this afternoon. “What Portia and I do or don’t do isn’t any of your damn business.” He grabbed his suit jacket. “I’ve had it for the day. I’m going home early. If any important calls come in, I’ll tell Sherry you can take them.”

  “Yeah, but can you trust me?” Ryan grinned again, but his shoulders were stiff, and his gaze didn’t leave Holden’s face.

  “If I didn’t trust you, you think I’d let you take care of the business?”

  A ripple of emotion flashed through Ryan’s face, then he looked the same, still grinning, but the tension gone. And as Holden stepped past him, Ryan grabbed his arm, and now his grin was gone, too, the serious look on his face making him appear more mature and less of an overgrown frat boy.

  “Hey, I don’t give a damn who sleeps with who—except my own sleeping partners. I’m concerned that you’re making another huge mistake. The first time out, you married a woman just like Mom, and that was disaster number one. This time you’re marrying Grandma. I can practically see disaster number two coming.”

  Holden stared at his brother. “If you need to know, we did have sex.”

  His brother’s forehead creased. “You ‘had sex.’ Like, it was once?”

  “I’m not talking about this anymore.” He jerked his arm away, grabbed his briefcase, and strode out. He was leaving early, but this day was a bust. And no way was he going to tell his brother that the sex was fine. That it happened the night he’d proposed to her, and she’d said yes.

  She’d been a virgin, the fact shocking him. Pleasing him. Not because he wanted to be a woman’s only lover. It pleased him because it was proof of her self-control and that, after their wedding, she wouldn’t turn into a wild child like Juliana.

  So what if fireworks hadn’t gone off? After all, she wasn’t experienced. And after that one time, she’d asked if he minded if they waited until after the wedding “to do it again.”

  Even if their lovemaking didn’t get better with marriage, it wouldn’t matter. It wasn’t as if most married couples he knew had a hot sex life. Years of living together had a way of making sex dull. But if you had respect and shared values, it could still be a good marriage.

  His brother was a fool. That’s what marriage was about.

  But as he walked away, his mind wanted to stop thinking about Portia and think instead about Abby. About the way she loved so much. If Juliana was like his mother and Portia his grandmother, Abby was like no one else he knew.

  She was the unknown.

  And like most men, he felt the urge to explore the unknown.

  But he wasn’t most men, and he could and would control himself.

  He was raised to resist temptation, and a small, sexy redhead wasn’t going to break him.

  10

  “We didn’t expect you so early,” Abby said, standing in the kitchen, knowing her face was turning an unlovely shade of pink that clashed with her hair. She reminded herself that Holden was engaged, and it didn’t matter if her face turned green or purple. He was off-limits. “You may as well stay for dinner.”

  He stared at her for a long moment, and she stared back. She felt his awareness of her, warmth prickling through her skin.

  “This is awkward,” she said. From her sister’s bedroom came the voices of Cara and Grace, both excited and happy as Grace went through her jewelry box, giving Cara old jewelry that was too childish for her.

  “My coming early?”

  “No, this thing between us.” She was glad the girls were in the other room. It was good to say this. Good to get it out in the open.

  He stood still, his eyes never leaving hers. She kept her chin up.

  “I’m glad I’ll only have to see you for six more days,” she said.

  His eyes gleamed, and she was reminded that men were hunters and went after what they couldn’t have.

  Too bad. He was engaged, and that was that. Engaged men had their hunting licenses revoked. There were always the ones who hunted illegally, but from the little she knew of Holden, he was the kind of man who did everything legally and with honor.

  Besides, she knew his fiancée—vaguely, and it had been a long time ago. Just an hour ago, she’d looked up Portia’s images online. There were quite a few photos of her at different events, and it was not fun for Abby, who had been hoping she’d put on a few pounds or that her complexion wasn’t as flawless anymore.

  None of that had happened. Portia looked like a model. Tall and slender with a pale complexion and dark hair in a pixie cut.

  Abby couldn’t imagine herself in a pixie cut. Her hair would look like red fuzz, and her eyes would be too big. The only time she would ever want that look would be on Halloween. And even then, she would scare small children coming to her door. They’d run to their parents screaming, and she’d stand on the porch feeling awful, stuck with a bagful of candy.

  “So you have a thing for me,” he said.

  “And you have a thing for me,” she said.

  He stared at her. “I’m engaged.”

  “I hope you keep remembering that.”

  “I don’t forget.”

  “You should call Portia and see her tonight. Cara can sleep over with us.” With each word, she was punishing herself, but she needed this punishment. Needed it to stop these emotions that she had no business feeling. “You’re not my type, anyway. I usually go for guys who are more fun.”

  “And you’re not mine. I usually date women who are more... Just more.”

  “Is that a cut on my height?” Now her voice rose with indignation, when she wanted to be aloof and uncaring.

  He was holding back laughter; she could see it in the clenched muscles around his mouth and the small lines raying out from the corners of his eyes. Usually she loved laughter, even when the joke was on her. Maybe even more in that case. But now... Well, sometimes a girl just didn’t feel like laughing. Once again, she had to fight to keep from kicking him in the shins.

  Or higher.

  “No insult intended,” he said.

  “Because I am more.” She held her arms out at her sides. “I am so filled with life that when I was young, I would climb up on the roof and yell that I could fly.”

  He laughed, a rumble that came from his belly, joy in his face. “I can picture you doing that. What happened to that little girl?”

  She tilted her head. “Are you kidding? I still think I could fly.”

  “Aren’t you missing something?”

  “A pair of wings. That’s all I need.”

  “I was going to say an airplane ticket.”

  “That’s the difference between us.”

  “The difference between us,”—he leaned toward her and lowered his face, until their lips were a hand-width away—“is that I already picture you with wings.”

  As she gasped, a voice called out, “Daddy!”

  He jerked back, looking guilty.

  So he should feel guilty, Abby thought fiercely. He was flirting wit
h her. Trying to seduce her.

  And she was flirting back. Trying to seduce him.

  That was the last time she started a conversation with a man by telling him to stay away. Obviously it was a case of wanting what they shouldn’t take and what she couldn’t give.

  But his attention was on Cara now, as she padded into the kitchen, her eyes shining, but still too shy and insecure to run to him.

  He held out his hand to her, his face different. Serious. As if he knew how fragile she was.

  Coming up behind Cara, Grace frowned, her gaze flickering from Abby to him and back. Abby shifted her eyes away from Grace’s. Her sister was old enough to feel the thickness in the atmosphere that happened when two people were shooting off their pheromones, creating a kind of sex soup.

  “Good thing I made extra food tonight.” Abby made her voice cheery, but it came out too loud and too forced. “Cara, your dad is joining us for dinner. You know where the plates and silverware are. Do you want to set a place at the table?”

  Cara’s flushed, happy face looked much better on a six-year-old than a twenty-eight-year-old, though Abby thought a happy face looked good on everyone. The world’s best beauty secret.

  Grace helped Cara set the table, and Abby served the food. The meal was simple: salad and spaghetti. There was plenty for everyone to eat. The conversation was lively with the girls talking about the cats and the dog. Though Cara didn’t talk as much as her and Grace, she kept saying “my kitty,” her face lit with happiness. Abby thought it was almost as if another little girl had taken over her body.

  She glanced at Holden. He was frowning, and sudden anger flared inside her. She gripped the paper napkin on her lap, squishing it.

  How could he have let this happen to his daughter? He seemed so solid, so trustworthy. How could he have neglected Cara like this?

  In that second, he didn’t look sexy to her anymore. With these thoughts inside her head, he wasn’t even a man she liked.

  His gaze switched to her, and she glared into his eyes, giving him the silent message that he’d lost her respect.

  Yet she didn’t look away. She wanted to ask him Why? How? When? As if there was a good reason for his neglect. The questions too many women asked of men when they did something wrong. Ready to grasp any excuse and say, “Yes, yes, yes, I see.”

  But the only good reason for neglect of a child was if you were seriously injured or if you didn’t know about the child.

  Or if you were dead.

  He was none of those things.

  She turned her head away and found it was easy to look away. Not all women would accept lame excuses. Not her.

  Anyway, he was engaged, and it was nothing to do with her.

  In a little over a week, Cara would be gone. After that, she would have no reason to see him again.

  She would count down the days.

  A small hand touched her arm, and she looked to her side at Cara, who gazed up at her with concern, as if she saw her unhappiness and was offering comfort.

  Abby smiled and bent forward, putting her hand on the side of Cara’s face. Cara leaned into her palm, much like Lion would do. And Abby felt her heart thump hard and steady as if new love poured into it, filling it. Love for this small girl who knew more than she should have about unhappiness.

  An urge came over her to tell Cara that she wished she was her daughter, but she clamped her teeth together, holding back the words.

  Yet tears burned her eyes as she pushed away her plate with spaghetti still on it. Cara took the hint and leaned away from her hand.

  Good. She was too involved with this man and his daughter. She rescued dogs and cats, not an unhappily engaged man—because if he was happy, she was the wealthiest woman in the world—and his lost daughter.

  “Anyone ready for ice cream?” she asked. And right then, she knew what she needed to do. It had started with Holden’s Aunt Daisy. Who better to end it?

  11

  The house seemed empty once Cara, Epic, and Holden left. The dishwasher was on, and Grace was in her room. Abby settled in the living room, Minnie on her favorite perch next to her, Lion on the floor. Quigley wasn’t around, and Abby guessed he was in Grace’s room. Or the basement. Or one hundred other places to hide in.

  Cats weren’t like dogs. Cats went where cats wanted to go. In a closet. A drawer. Sleeping on her bed or, as had happened more times than she liked to recall, throwing up on her bed.

  When it happened, she sighed and dealt with it. Just as she was dealing with her inappropriate feelings for Cara’s dad.

  She picked up the phone and called Daisy. As it rang, she petted Minnie, who was staring at her intently, as if she were remembering everything to convey to the others. The thought made Cara smile as Daisy answered the phone in her strong voice and asked how the babysitting was going.

  “Wonderful.” She pulled her hand from Minnie. “Grace and I and the animals love Cara. She took home a foster kitten. The agency already okayed it.”

  “That was fast. It took me longer to get approval.”

  “You aren’t the CEO of one of the biggest companies in the city.”

  Daisy’s full-throated laugh came through. Abby waited for her to stop; she lived by the rule to never interrupt a laugh. “They trusted my recommendation, too,” she added, “and I did say he’s your nephew. But that’s not why I called. Do you remember telling me that you’d found the perfect man to fix me up with?”

  “Darling, that was months ago. He’s not on the market anymore.”

  Abby wrinkled her nose. “Just as well, I suppose. Men are like vegetables. Leave them hang around too long and they get spoiled.”

  Daisy laughed again. “It’s too bad. You would’ve been good for him.”

  “I don’t want a man I can be good for. I want one who will be good for me.”

  “You’re good for my soul,” Daisy said, laughter still quivering in her full voice. “That’s why I love you.”

  “If only you were a man, you’d be my perfect partner.”

  That set Daisy off again. Abby sat back in her chair and saw Minnie staring at her with her Siamese blue eyes.

  “I do know an imperfect man,” Daisy said, laughter still in her voice.

  “Sounds good to me. Perfect is too much to live up to.”

  “What are you doing tonight?”

  “Tonight?” Abby sat up straight. “I’m talking to you and will undoubtedly pet my cat. I might even go wild and pluck my eyebrows.”

  “Start plucking now. I’ll call you back in five minutes.”

  Abby set down her phone and stared at Minnie. “Wow. Daisy doesn’t waste time.”

  Then she stood and headed to the bathroom. She needed to find her tweezers.

  ***

  Holden felt antsy tonight in his living room, his house too quiet. It was still light out, and he gazed out the French doors at the lake. Too many thoughts swirled in his head for him to sit and relax. Usually he worked late and went to bed early. Maybe reading a book in between or watching a favorite TV show or, when the urge hit him, painting one of his fantastical visions. Sometimes he and Portia would do something with friends, chatting and smiling, not saying anything of meaning that he could recall. Now he wondered what was behind their smiles. Happiness or loneliness or secret desires, hopes, and dreams.

  He didn’t know. He didn’t even know Portia’s hopes and dreams. Did she have any? She seemed to glide through life, doing everything exquisitely. She knew about his worries about the company. He’d told her the truth about Cara’s parentage. Other than her, he’d only told Daisy and Ryan. It was their right to know the truth.

  It wasn’t Abby’s right. But he’d seen the accusation and disappointment on her face at dinner tonight.

  He’d seen the rejection. Yet he’d continued to eat his spaghetti as if nothing was wrong...when everything was wrong.

  He’d burned at the injustice, yet he had no idea how to fix it.

  A sound caught his attenti
on. A soft meow.

  Turning, he spotted the kitten.

  “What are you doing here?” He bent and held his hand out for her to sniff.

  The little ball of fluff did better than that. She rubbed the sides of her mouth on the bony ridges of his hand then tried to climb on it.

  His mood softened. Epic stumbled off his hand, too big to fit. Still thinking she was tiny and obviously not accustomed to her growth spurts.

  “I understand.” He picked her up with both hands and held her in front of his face. “I think I’m more limber than I am, too.”

  Epic meowed.

  “You’re going to get white cat hair all over my brown couch, aren’t you?”

  Another meow.

  “The lady at the pet store said I need to clean the litter box every day.”

  Another meow. As if she was answering him.

  “The cleaning crew comes in only once a week. This means I’ll have to do it myself.”

  The kitten didn’t meow at him now, perhaps understanding that some subjects were better left unanswered.

  “You’re a smart kitten, aren’t you?”

  Epic meowed loudly, ending on a high note, as if it were an exclamation point.

  “I agree. Let me give you a problem.” Holden stepped to the brown, leather recliner and sank into it. “If I knew something that would change the way someone thought about me, do you think I should tell her?”

  This time she mewled, a sound that could only be more positive if she’d nodded her small head.

  “Even if it’s not my secret?”

  The kitten’s head tilted, and she stared at him, as if trying to understand the subtext.

  “Even if it would hurt another person if she found out the truth?” He frowned. Maybe it wouldn’t have hurt Cara before this, he thought. But in these last couple days, she’d come to depend upon him. She’d told him she loved him.

  Epic voiced a string of meows. Holden leaned back on the recliner and let her walk on his upper chest.

  “That’s definitely a yes,” he said.

  The kitten jumped off him, and he turned his head and watched her pad back down the hall toward Cara’s bedroom.